Denial

Hey there!
Here we go again. I always have this simple yet so relieving conversation with myself.

me: *not in the mood*
inner me: You know what, everything starts within you!
me: what can I do? I couldn't help it! It makes my mood drawn all around!
inner me: then, if you just keep in silent, does your problem solved? Does the pain diminish?
me: no!
inner me: So what's the plan?
me: I don't want to talk. It's useless!
inner me: then start to embrace the truth that you're looking like a fool!!
me: I don't care! They can't understand me at all!
inner me: That's it!! how can they understand you if you don't say a word??
me: I don't know where to start!
inner me: Start where you drop the madness! 
me:  I can't remember. But I'm okay. Don't mind me. I just need a space.
inner me: Why you can't be just true to your self. Let them know what you really feel! Tell them what really inside you! What's your inclined with!
me: As I told you, they won't understand me! It's just a waste of time. They're busy.
inner me: So, that's it?! You'll gonna live this life till the end? Gosh! For God's sake, wake up! People are changing! They'll be your best FRIENDS as well as they'll become your best ENEMY! You have to accept the consequences. That's life, it is so impossible. It'll drive you crazy if you let it to. Life is like playing cards, you have to bet to find who wins.
me: I'm afraid to lose my last card!
inner me: That's why you have to gamble with it.
me: Call me coward! But I can't afford to lose it!!!
inner me: *sigh*

#ItIsUseless


-YUKI