Knowing You

It was a very exhausted day! MIDTERM is sick!! Oh well we have to study hard because we will be taking up our SOCIOLOGY exam tomorrow and I don't know what we'll gonna be our pointers are!?

I really don't know where do this moodiness of mine came from. I don't want to be like this! I hate this feeling!GRR!
Here we go again. We've been keep on arguing with those things. ARGUMENTS LAST! REALLY LAST!

inner me: why you don't just trash the thought and continue your day?
me: I can't help it! I want to be updated but I don't want to be hurt of what would be the outcome of it!
inner me: YOU'RE such a bullshit! Why do I have to keep on reminding you to stop that while you don't listen to me at all!?
me: sorry but I just really want to know about the issue. T_T
inner me: THEN, be ready of what you will know!
me: yeah =)
inner me: stop pretending, you're not cute!
me: Did I ask so? :P
inner me: MOVE ON!
me: why do I have to move on? I'm not broken!
inner me: Yes, literally but emotionally? Naah bet me, you are crushed!
me: I just can't forget what happened the last time we had. It penetrate my personality. How sad. It just that, I come up with the idea of "insecurity" of what she have. But then, I realize how lucky I am today to have more than of what I asked for =)
inner me: I like it when to talk to me like that. As you were talking accordingly to your age LOL :P
me: nyaa ~ :3  suit yourself!
inner me: ILOVEYOU thou you are so unpredictable sometimes.
me: Yeah! My pleasure :P
inner me: So, doubts no more ?
me: mm, sort of.
inner me: C'mon, cheer up. Let your bushers envy you :)
me: Yah!

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This issue really makes my day vulnerable. Well,the issue is all about a slut who desperately can't get off my BAE. But I'm ok now :) believe me.

--YUKI

Denial

Hey there!
Here we go again. I always have this simple yet so relieving conversation with myself.

me: *not in the mood*
inner me: You know what, everything starts within you!
me: what can I do? I couldn't help it! It makes my mood drawn all around!
inner me: then, if you just keep in silent, does your problem solved? Does the pain diminish?
me: no!
inner me: So what's the plan?
me: I don't want to talk. It's useless!
inner me: then start to embrace the truth that you're looking like a fool!!
me: I don't care! They can't understand me at all!
inner me: That's it!! how can they understand you if you don't say a word??
me: I don't know where to start!
inner me: Start where you drop the madness! 
me:  I can't remember. But I'm okay. Don't mind me. I just need a space.
inner me: Why you can't be just true to your self. Let them know what you really feel! Tell them what really inside you! What's your inclined with!
me: As I told you, they won't understand me! It's just a waste of time. They're busy.
inner me: So, that's it?! You'll gonna live this life till the end? Gosh! For God's sake, wake up! People are changing! They'll be your best FRIENDS as well as they'll become your best ENEMY! You have to accept the consequences. That's life, it is so impossible. It'll drive you crazy if you let it to. Life is like playing cards, you have to bet to find who wins.
me: I'm afraid to lose my last card!
inner me: That's why you have to gamble with it.
me: Call me coward! But I can't afford to lose it!!!
inner me: *sigh*

#ItIsUseless


-YUKI

Helpless

I'm supposedly watching a romantic movie. Suddenly I felt a warm liquid fell down from my eyes then I just haven't noticed that I'm crying out of nothing.

Slowly watching myself in my vulnerable moment. I fell like I have nothing in this world. I missed my mom, I missed my dad. I missed my family. I missed myself. I don't know what to do. This is the most helpless stage in my life. I want someone to talk to, but it looks like there's no one.

Can't you see how this fate play our lives. I'm running out of breath. I want to stop being such a paranoid.  Today is Valentine's day but I don't feel the love. Naah! Who cares!

--YUKI